Running Still

In the calm

and

In the storm

I will rest within the shelter of your embrace. 

Though it rains,

Though it pours,

Still I will run

until I have finished the race,

and remained in my faith. 

Darkness deep preys on me,

Circling round and round inside my chest,

Without rest.

But I pray in your name, and 

You are I AM. 

So what is there left to fear?

Nothing here. 

The worst pain can only last a lifetime. 

I walk among wolves without hesitation,

For they know a Lion resides within my soul.

Heartache

They think their heartache is true...

If they only knew. 

How deeply my heart aches for you. 

They're upset because their high school love has gone away. 

When I can't even touch you where you lay. 

They were dragging their feet

 My world was shattering

It was Monday morning. 

"Take an alternate route" they said, 

As if your broken body was merely an inconvenience. 

They simply said, 

one dead. 

And you were not even a name. 

Love Hopeful

Familiar is your voice as you call my name, 

Gentle is the hand that glides across my skin.

Warm and bottomless are the eyes that know my soul.

This one, this time it's different. 

I crave goodnight cuddling, 

and good morning kisses. 

I crave midnight stargazing, and midday picnics. 

I crave dances in the rain,

and long nights spent laughing. 

Patient is my heart as I wait on you, 

And strange are the feelings you've sparked in me.  

Wide is the smile that dances across my mouth as my soul warms to your touch. 

I smiled because I knew, that

You craved me too. 

They conform

They lost me.

At the urges to become fake,

The moment they desired conformity from me. 

They lost me.

Once they asked me to analyze the world to death, 

When they chose not to understand me. 

They cannot recover me now. 

I am long gone, 

Running free in my own daydreams. 

I am lost in wild hopes,

Too far gone to find my way back to their cynical world.  

 

Whispering Wind

The wind is playing his broken melody tonight, 

Discordant notes clamor for calm with all their might. 

Melancholy tunes search for soothing in their fright. 

My lover is childlike

Love me foolishly. 

Throw caution to the wind,

As we fall hopelessly into each other. 

Love me faithfully.

Stay by my side,

As I make all my mistakes. 

Love me truly. 

Learn all the ways my heart starts and stops.

Drowning

The water rippled, shifting weight.

Her fingertips broke the surface,

Arm outstretched, she fought. 

Drowning in emotions an ocean wide. 

Desperate for rescue.

No one saw her struggle,

No one came to her aide. 

Because she was their anchor

And they didn't notice until that day. 

Pursuing Unmoving

I must run with wolves,

Never stopping for fear of falling behind. 

Even though my soul yearns for rest,

Yearns for the warmth of your chest and the shelter of your arms. 

I must wait with the trees,

Unmoving for fear of disturbing the peace. 

Even though my heart drives me to seek you,

To seek the one who would take me mind, soul, and body as his own. 

So I must run with the wolves a while longer,

I must seek you in the waiting. 

Gone Away

We laugh and play,
as if you hadn't gone away.
Your arms wrapped around me,
my cheek pressed against your chest.
Your body is still warm against mine in that place,
though I know its cold now where you lay.

While I sleep,
your heart still beats,
as if no sirens had howled.
We still laugh and play,
as if you hadn't left that day.

Search

They stumble and search;
for what they do not know.
Searching. Ever Searching.
For what, they cannot grasp.
Not a place.
Nor a feeling.
A Savior
Someone to understand,

to give hope, love, and grace.
Someone to leave the light on,
To lead them through the dark.

I Write

I write only because there is a voice within me that will not be still. -Sylvia Plath

Most of my life, I have kept a journal (filled with my passions). I've decided to expose the depths of my mind to any who would care to read them. This blog is very simply put-me. All the poems that randomly form in my mind, all the words of others that I've collected over time, and all the thoughts God is revealing to me. Enjoy (and if you will, humor me).